You make friendship lifeless to me :'|

Me, fighting with you was a horror. It all started by a feelings through a boy. I know maybe u wont read this because you wont be neccessary spend some time to my stupid blog. Well, This is like a diary and my expression to you. We fight about this MR thingy. I dint purposely told F about who you were like-ing. It was on your blog I read, so at school I ask F about it. Since he said he dint know about it, I quickly told that it was a joke. Then he might probaly ask you about it to make it sure its true or false. Then you with your crown bang me with a anger that make me soo DEAD. Maybe to you, it makes me easy, it makes me tak kesah puun. But no. I miss the way you gave me the big smile. Everything. You always pronounce yourself as a "Awesome Girl". I think, others that hate, or dont know you well, might just say what a sassy girl or whatever. I cant speak well like you do :P But for me, I should hate you right now. Should crush you deeply, never put my eyes on you and nasty things. But, I din't. I hold my anger, my feelings at the bottom of my heart. Crying like a 6 year old while you were joying with laughter with your friends. I tried to smiled at you but you just din't felt too. You din't get the messeg. Yes, I KNOW. Maafkan aku xde makne. Because it passed. I realise, at the exam week, I called MR 4 name. And I think you might catch my voice that time. You looked back at me that time, and I was happy. Because I could see your face. You are a awesome girl, Q. I wont called any name here. I dont know what to say. Apologizing wont make things even better. I still remember, I promise you to lend you a keychain. And others. Well its kinda a lot I booked. But I just wanna say, I miss you. :'/ At Hari Guru , I still remember you and your gangss, meet Baim, Syer all. I saw some of the pupils was jealous seeing you guys was in front them. Well me? I block the view. Muaha :D And lastly, MR 4 already know you like him, and it doesnt bother. I know you mybe you dont have some feelings at him. But I believe some day, you gonna get your love. It just kinda get a couple of times. about MR 3, The one I said I like, haha he's not my type. And again, thanks for everything.